Post by shire on Mar 18, 2019 1:13:44 GMT
FROZENFOX of REEDCLAN
38 MOONS
DEPUTY
MALE
HOMOSEXUAL
an elegant white tom with long fur and blue eyes
lionstrike and ivyclaw were fierce warriors, their love of the heat of battle the thing that drew them together. they both valued each other's strength, loving only their duties as warriors more than each other. not entirely romantic, the pair looked to having kits as a way to pass on their genes, to ensure that their talents would continue on to make sure reedclan stayed strong. to say they were not modest would be an understatement, but their desires were soon rewarded with the birth of two kits.
the first was bright golden, like their mother, big and stocky, even as such a small helpless age. 'goldenkit' he was declared, for his pelt and the bright hopes they were placing with him. the second kit was small, bright white and scrawny compared to his brawny brother. 'frozenkit' it was decided for him, for his pelt made him seem as though he had been frozen with snow and ice. strong names, lionstrike decided, strong names that they would certainly grow into.
as frozenkit and goldenkit began to grow, lionstrike and ivyclaw's attentions soon began to shift from both of their sons to just one. goldenkit, living up to the expectations set before him, was growing rapidly, blossoming into a stocky and hard-hitting kit. frozenkit, on the other hand, was seeming like a disappointment. he did not resemble either parent, taking more after his grandmother snowlily, who was white and sleek-furred. he was small, dwarfed by his brother, and while both siblings played well together, it soon became obvious to frozenkit that his parent's gazed at goldenkit with pride and at him with...well, something else.
he voiced such concerns to goldenkit only once, but goldenkit paid them no mind. he was being silly, goldenkit told him. and while frozenkit still loved his brother, he felt a small seed of resentment get planted, and no longer did he voice such concerns outloud.
their apprenticeship soon arrived, and while lionstrike groomed them both to perfection, frozenkit counted more loving swipes of her tongue to goldenkit's fur than his own. he would show them! he would work hard, overcome whatever faults they had perceived and show them a son to be proud of.
he was assigned to ashroot, a steadfast and calm young she-cat. the pair worked well together, and frozenpaw approached his training with eagerness. and while he did not falter anywhere, he was relatively average in regards to fighting, whereas goldenpaw was doing the best. and no matter his strengths in hunting or planning, his parents valued the strength of a swipe rather than the quickness of a catch, and gazed at him with growing disappointment every day.
frozenpaw began to grow bitter, though his growing frustrations were not directed towards himself or even his parents, but towards his mentor. surely she wasn't doing her best to train him and was purposefully holding him back! that had to be the reason behind his faults. and so the camaraderie that they shared before was quickly broken off, frozenpaw becoming short and snarky towards her. and while she tried to convince him to focus on his strengths rather than his weaknesses, he ignored her.
he and goldenpaw finished their apprenticeship together, named goldenbear and frozenfox. and despite his initial pride at his new name, he saw the skepticism and judgement in his parent's eyes. golden was named for his fierceness in battle, while his was for his wit and cunning. he had let his parents down again, this time by the fault of his clan.
clearly, he decided, the clan didn't see his worth, viewing him as lesser compared to his shining brother. the world was against him, it had been from the start. words are taken personally, his insecurities growing more and more as he continued without (or with the refusal) of support and guidance. he was being denied respect and appreciation. soon, his eyes began to drift towards the leader's den. what better way to earn such things than with power?
so his ambitions began to grow, fueled with growing bitterness and insecurity, desperate for something to cling to to show himself he has worth. to show the clan, so filled with cats who viewed him as nothing, that he was something.
but goldenbear, perfect goldenbear, wasn't he the obvious choice for any future position of power? how could he ever compete with someone perceived as so perfect? and so his anger towards his brother grew, frozenfox ignoring (or not seeing) the confusion and hurt in his sibling's gaze.
he received an apprentice, carppaw. a nervous little she-cat, frozenfox felt impatient and frustrated with her. but no, he couldn't let such feelings be seen. he couldn't give anyone the ammunition he was sure they wanted to fire against him. and so he was gentle and patient with her, and she was a good distraction from his paranoia and frustrations. in fact, had he paid attention, he felt better than he had in moons when his focus was directed somewhere other than anger and resentment. but she soon graduated, and he was alone again.
and then, one day, goldenbear was gone. vanished, without a trace. search parties were sent out, often led by lionstrike and ivyclaw, finding only clumps of golden hair along the edge of the territory. it was assumed by the clan that he was dead, killed by something and taken away.
through it all, frozenfox overheard his parents speaking in hushed voices, perhaps raised just enough in volume to let passerby hear. why did it have to be goldenbear, they lamented. why that son? frozenfox felt as though struck through the heart. they wished it had been him who was gone, instead of his brother!
he grew desperate to prove himself, to himself and to the clan and his parents, everyone and everything that doubted and hated him. he flung himself into his warrior duties with renewed vigor, and began to work hard to gain the hawthornstar's favor. but, he knew, it wasn't the leader he needed to become close to, but rather, the deputy.
for if it was power he was after, he needed torrentheart to announce him as deputy whenever she inevitably became leader. and so he continued to work hard, offering input and advice where it was needed and friendship and support when it wasn't. he was careful, careful to hide his desperation and anxiety for power, despite feeling that it is the only way he will ever be worth something. perhaps, he figures, others will view him with the respect and appreciation he wants and deserves if he were frozenstar.
and he will do anything and everything to get what he wants.
manipulative, ambitious, power-hungry, desperate
low self esteem and sense of worth, insecure, feels he has to prove himself, paranoid (especially regarding other's opinions of him), bitter
sharp tongue, sarcastic
hard-working, clever, intelligent, good at keeping his cool (externally), patient (externally), fast on both his feet and his mind, good with advice, always eager to lend a paw
through it all, frozenfox overheard his parents speaking in hushed voices, perhaps raised just enough in volume to let passerby hear. why did it have to be goldenbear, they lamented. why that son? frozenfox felt as though struck through the heart. they wished it had been him who was gone, instead of his brother!
he grew desperate to prove himself, to himself and to the clan and his parents, everyone and everything that doubted and hated him. he flung himself into his warrior duties with renewed vigor, and began to work hard to gain the hawthornstar's favor. but, he knew, it wasn't the leader he needed to become close to, but rather, the deputy.
for if it was power he was after, he needed torrentheart to announce him as deputy whenever she inevitably became leader. and so he continued to work hard, offering input and advice where it was needed and friendship and support when it wasn't. he was careful, careful to hide his desperation and anxiety for power, despite feeling that it is the only way he will ever be worth something. perhaps, he figures, others will view him with the respect and appreciation he wants and deserves if he were frozenstar.
and he will do anything and everything to get what he wants.
manipulative, ambitious, power-hungry, desperate
low self esteem and sense of worth, insecure, feels he has to prove himself, paranoid (especially regarding other's opinions of him), bitter
sharp tongue, sarcastic
hard-working, clever, intelligent, good at keeping his cool (externally), patient (externally), fast on both his feet and his mind, good with advice, always eager to lend a paw
